If only I could stop time
Just this once
Just so I can stare at you some seconds more
Just so I can hold your hand for one more day
Just so I can still actually kiss you
Just so I can wake up next to you again

If only I could stop time
I will not keep you forever
I just want to hold you
A little while more.

A message on love from P

But love is always new. Regardless of whether we love once, twice, or a dozen times in our life, we always face a brand-new situation. Love can consign us to hell or to paradise, but it always takes us somewhere. We simply have to accept it, because it is what nourishes our existence. If we reject it, we die of hunger, because we lack the courage to stretch out a hand and pluck the fruit from the branches of the tree of life. We have to take love where we find it, even if that means hours, days, weeks of disappointment and sadness. The moment we begin to seek love, love begins to seek us.  And to save us.
― Paulo Coelho, By the River Piedra I Sat Down and Wept

Paglisan

Ang gumising sa iyong bisig
At ang marinig ang iyong himig
Puno ka ng pasasalamat
Hindi mo lang alam, mahal
Pag-ibig mo’y higit pa sa sapat

Sa iyong paglisan
Wala namang akong pinagsisihan
Alam kong ikaw man ay nasa malayo
Sa puso mo ako’y iyong itatago
Hindi papayag na basta lang maglaho

Wala man tayong pinangako, mahal
Laman ka ng aking mga dasal
Hindi mo na kailangan sabihin
Ang mahalaga sa aking puso ika’y kapiling
Wala nakong iba pang hihilingin.

Aida

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Lucky to have found an Aida in my life. I am forever grateful and I hope I can make it one day at a time. :)

Love can get frustrating sometimes. :)

When you have to fight about it. 

Ordinary Day

And as he spoke, he spoke ordinary words
Although they did not feel
For I felt what I had not felt before
And you’d swear those words could heal.
And as I looked up into those eyes
His vision borrows mine.
And I know he’s no stranger,
For I feel I’ve held him for all of time.

He said take my hand,
Live while you can
Don’t you see your dreams lie right in the palm of your hand

- Ordinary Day, Vanessa Carlton

You used to be just an ordinary boy who spoke the right words on an ordinary day. = )

P.S. Forgive the #highschoolfeels :P

 

One

All my senses come to life
While I’m stumbling home as drunk as I
Have ever been and I’ll never leave again
‘Cause you are the only one
And all my friends have gone to find
Another place to let their hearts collide
Just promise me, you’ll never leave again

-Ed Sheeran

Just so the Universe knows, I’m sorry

To the girl who loved you first
I know you must have felt an inconceivable pain when he left you because of me. Your trust was shattered and no amount of sorries can heal the pain. I don’t really know you, except for the stories he and his friends tell me. You seem like a great girl which makes it more of a pain for me to know that I caused you pain that I wouldn’t wish for anyone.

Up to now, I am still trying to deny my faults. I still think that you broke up not because of me. It’s because you already had problems all along. You hurt him. We’re really just meant for each other. Everything happens for a reason… And all those other excuses I keep telling myself.

But recently, painfully, I had to come to terms with the truth. It was my fault too. We tried but we couldn’t put an end to what we had. We were selfish. I was selfish. I wanted him too. I wanted the way he loved you. I loved the way he loved me.

You don’t know me, but you must know something about why I let it happen. You must know how he looks at people he loves. You must know how big and forgiving his heart is. I loved him in a way that I allowed things to happen because I wanted him to stay for a bit longer in my life. I chose to love him and be there for him even if I knew the whole truth about you.

I didn’t want to blame myself for everything that happened because I didn’t want to hate myself. Just as I hope you forgive me someday, I hope to forgive myself as well for what I did to you. I know you don’t care. But I want you to know that it still hurts me to know that I have hurt you.

I hope you know that I am not an evil wicked person and that I am sorry. Just as you will try to forgive him, I hope you will have the heart to forgive me as well.

In time, I hope I can forgive myself too.

To the boy I loved and hurt
I am sorry that I put all the blame on you. It’s so much easier to feel strong and tell everyone that I did not give a f&ck. Because while they are trying to understand what happened, they always see me as the one who destroyed everything you had. And so I try so bad to show them I did not care and that I was strong enough to leave should you not have chosen me.

It pains me then to have people know that I was a fling. It pains me now that I am the cause of destroying something beautiful just because I loved you. But what I understand now is that I cannot avoid the pain. I can only come to terms with it. When I chose to love you, I should have been ready to feel pain from all the people who will judge me, just as I judge myself too harshly.

I hope you can forgive me too, as I try to forgive myself as well. I love you and I hope this does not come between the two of us.

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